Suicidal thoughts YET AGAIN

I can’t even go to fucking Tescos without being asked about teeth as has just happened 20 minutes ago. An ex patient’s wife, who works in Tesco’s, asked me about her wisdom teeth.

Or do I tell the person to fuck off and leave me alone and loose another friend? Cos when I tell them what has happened and why I do not want to fkn talk about teeth they then say “Get over it, move or it’s only money”.

NO IT IS 40 years of my fkn life destroyed by an intentional lie.

Or do I take medication as Muthkkumar insists and then STILL experience the shit but this time I am like a fkn zombie? Like I was between 1998 and 2004 as the so called Mental Health Services reinforced every time I SAW THEM THAT I WAS A HIGH RISK SUICIDE.

Thanks to Dr RB John’s lies. Medical Opinion and Compliment Slip.

Or do I kill myself to get away from this hell?

I NEVER was suicidal in 1998 and these thoughts have only surfaced because of that c*nt Dr Gwen Kahan

and then Dr Ballsurryia said I needed compensation

I say to Edwina Hart “Is the treatment I now receive from Castle Surgery the “correct level of care” that you hoped they would show to me.

And all because Dr RB John is a despicable man. Not even beating the crap outa him would help. I NEED ANSWERS and as Dr Balla says “I DESERVE COMPENSATION”.

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Dr RB John has another protector

Am I a Welsh NHS Dr David Kelly? It seems ALL in the NHS in Wales want me DEAD? Just because I tell the truth about Dr RB John AND all documented IN MY MEDICAL NOTES.

I have one real regret in my life and that was believing that a Doctor would NEVER lie. I can take no more. So I say that Dr RB John is a pathological liar: They act very defensively when you question their statements. They believe what they say is true, when everyone else knows it isn’t. They lie when it is very easy to tell the truth. They lie to get sympathy, to look better, to save their butt, etc. Is a legend in their own mind. They “construct” a reality around themselves. They don’t value the truth, especially if they don’t see it as hurting anyone. If you call them on a lie and they are backed into a corner, they will act very defensively and say ugly things (most likely but depends on personality), but they may eventually start to act like, “Well, what’s the difference? You’re making a big deal out of nothing!” (again, to refocus the conversation to your wrongdoing instead of theirs).

Not much has been established about pathological lying, except that it is the mental state of the liar and not the lie that is abnormal

One could also deduce that the NHS are also pathological liars from the above paragraph.

Guidance for good practice on the GMC web site.

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Dr F Gama of Castle Surgery has now shown his true colours. No longer is he “Not As Bad As The Others” NABATO he is now as evil as the other Doctors in Castle Surgery who have protected Dr RB John. Dr F Gama is as bad as the others now ABATON

I told Dr Gama yesterday as I left his surgery that I see no point in continuing to fight the suicidal thoughts I have as I assume that he has DONE NOTHING to help me as I have requested HELP at EVERY visit to him this year. Dr Gama also said that the treatment available from the Psychiatric Services in West Glamorgan DOES NOT INCUDE “Talking Therapies” as medication is the ONLY treatment available.  AND according to Dr Muthakkumar medication WITHOUT a diagnosis.

BUT he now tells me to continue with the Nitro Lingual spray having told me a week previously to stop it. He tried to show his caring professional attitude by telling me how to use it seemingly forgetting that he categorically told me to STOP using it at our last meeting

My cholesterol however was 3.9.

When I saw Dr Gwen Kahan in April last year 2008 about a suggested misdiagnosis of my heart condition SHE sent me to the psychiatrist

and NOW when I threaten to commit suicide AGAIN, Dr Gama now ONLY reassures me of my heart condition.

FOR FUCKS SAKE LISTEN TO ME. I fucking know the condition of my coronary vessels having read and re-read the letters from the Cardiologists and having gone through the HELL of the last 18 months.

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Seems a corrupt and evil man Dr RB John is allowed to practice.

He has intentionally deceived the very people that bestowed on him the post of High Sheriff of West Glamorgan.

He intentionally lied in order to destroy MY life as a NHS Dentist.

He intentionally REFUSED to respond in a professional and true manner in the NHS Complaint by corruptly using his post of Medical Director of the very Local Health Board that was investigating MY complaint against him

AND YET he is now on the All Wales Primary Care Quality & Information Service Advisory Group giving HIS advice on primary care in the treatment of patients for ALL OF WALES.

WHAT THE FUCK does HE know?

Dr Ronald Bryn John is as bad, in a different way, to Dr Harold Shipman. Written evidence is available and also IS PRESENT IN MY MEDICAL NOTES in documents SIGNED by him to prove so.

Yet he is described as exemplary and I am described as paranoid, with delusions of persecution and dislocation from reality and yet I cannot get tteatment from the Psychiatric Services as they ALL TELL me to MOVE ON.

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So am I a Welsh NHS Dr David Kelly?

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Gross Negligence

I had a haematoma in my right wrist following Dr Gupta’s 90 minute angiogram prior to the bypass in 2008 according to a letter from Mr Ramsey, Cardiology Consultant addressed to Dr RH Lewis in Castle Surgery. Letter dated 7th September 2007.

I suggest that THESE letters are NEVER read by ANY Doctor in Castle Surgery

Dr Ramsey sent ME a copy at the time he wrote the letter. That is why I asked SO MANY TIMES about my right wrist. So for Dr A Lilley to REFUSE TO ANSWER by saying that I as the patient do not understand is GROSS NEGLIGENCE on her behalf. She obviously had not read that letter, nor intended to read it and also did not allow me time to explain the presence of this haematoma. AND the continuing pain in my right wrist.

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I rang Castle Surgery to talk to Dr Gama about my blood tests which were normal, and requested a non urgent  appointment to discuss the results.  The receptionist told me to ring back the next morning to book this appointment as Dr Gama was fully booked that day. I said I appreciated that but wished to book an appointment “for any time in the next 2 weeks” as stated in the long preamble as I waited to be connected. She angrily said he was busy and to ring the next day. I tried to say that the preamble said I could book an appt. She interrupted and told me I could not and to ring the next day. I called, in person, the next day and easily booked an appointment for the following Monday. That initial receptionist IS an ignorant cow and should NOT BE IN EMPLOYMENT. BUT then I assume that she has been told to say that by Dr R Lewis as the surgery makes money from the 0844 number

Why did Dr Gama tell me to stop the medication prescribed by the Out of Hours Doctor? WITHOUT an explanation. Is he saying, without further investigation , that this Doctor is incorrect? He said to stop IMMEDIATELY after I told him I had been prescribed Nitro Lingual Spray.

Why then did he arrange a blood test and how would THIS specifically lead to a diagnosis for treatment considering the symptoms that lead me to attend the Out of Hours Clinic?

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Interesting comparison:

I asked Dr G Kahan for reassurance re my “misdiagnosed” heart disease and she sent me to the psychiatrist. She totally ignored what I was saying and prescribed CATASTROPHICALLY the wrong treatment. ANd lied in her entry in my Medical Notes. That is negligence and malpractice.

I asked Dr F Gama for reassurance re  the “diagnosis” from the Out of Hours Doctor and he IMMEDIATELY said for me to stop the treatment prescribed,  Dr Gama therefore saying  that this diagnosis was NOW wrong. Yet he only arranged more bloody blood tests. FOR WHAT REASON apart from financial gain for the surgery? Dr Gama ignored what I, as the patient was saying, and told me to stop the treatment prescribed implying that the Out of Hours Doctor was now INCORRECT.

What an arrogant fkn man Dr Gama is turning out to be. He is acting like the rest of the Doctors in Castle Surgery now.

ALL refusing to listen to the patient.

WHO THE FUCK DO YOU TRUST? I trust Mr Mark Ramsey in HIS diagnosis. I trusted Mr Martin Ebeyer with my Lung Abscess. I distrust and am growing to despise ALL Doctors in Castle Surgery, yet I have NO CHOICE BUT to see them.

One thing Dr RB John has shown, he has shown that doctors in Neath think they are GODS and ALL are negligent and guilty of malpractice to some degree.

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Seven Steps to patient safety and PTSD

I woke myself up by screaming this morning. I was being attacked by something, in a dream I assume as not even the cat was in my room. I felt petrified as I took time to get properly awake. Awful sensation. God I needed a cigarette.  A thought was crashing round my mind.  Dr R Lewis said that something’s will not be resolved and for me to move on and forget dentistry. That implies that HE KNOWS Dr RB John DID destroy my life and that they will do anything to stop me getting answers and justice They being, I assume, the authorities, NHS Wales. Also says that Dr RB John and Dr Lewis have talked about me.

Dr RB John is definitely not the correct person to be on the All Wales Primary Care Quality & Information Service Advisory Group because what the hell does he know about Primary Care. Maybe they use him as a good example of how NOT to do it. Remember the old adage, Those that can, do and those that can’t either teach or advise.

Seven steps to patient safety in General Practice.

Step 3: Regularly review patient records (e.g. using case-note review tools) so that areas of common harm such as delayed or missed diagnoses/treatment can be identified. A safer practice: includes patient safety considerations in every decision the practice makes and has complete and accurate medical records;

Step 5: Involve and communicate with patients and the public. If something goes wrong, a prompt, full, honest and compassionate explanation with an apology can help patients cope better with the aftereffects of when things have gone wrong. The NPSA Safer Practice Notice, Being open when patients are harmed gives guidance on explaining what happened to patients and/or their carers who have been involved in a patient safety incident.

Step 6: Learn and share safety lessons. When something goes wrong (or could have gone wrong) the important issue is not to apportion blame but to understand what you can do to prevent it happening again. For this, you need to know what happened, how, why and what can be done to stop it from happening again. A good practice is one that learns from mistakes or gaps in care and turns a potentially negative event into a positive one of improved, safer care.

At the BMJ Evidence Centre, we think it’s vital that patients, together with their families and carers, are given all the detailed information they need to understand their condition, and the benefits and side effects of their treatment options.

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Some questions that may be asked about PTSD. I have told Dr Gama ALL the following except item 9, but was ignored. The Psychiatrists haven’t even asked me how I feel as they  seem to all want me on medication without a diagnosis.

Have you ever had any physical reactions (such as headaches or feeling dizzy) when something reminded you of the event? YES

Have you ever tried to avoid thinking about the event? YES

Have you had difficulty remembering some important parts of the event? YES

Have you been less interested in activities you usually enjoy? YES

Have you felt distant or cut off from other people? YES

Have there been times when you felt there’s no need to plan for the future or that somehow your future will be cut short? YES

Have you had any problems falling asleep or staying asleep? YES

Have you felt guilty about anything you did or didn’t do during the event? YES

Have you ever felt guilty about surviving the event when others did not? not relevant

Have you thought about harming yourself or ending your life?YES

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SNAFU

Dr Gama told to stop using the Nitrolingual spray given by the Out of Hours Doctor on Saturday. SO who do I now believe??

My BP for Dr G  was 132/80 and pulse, I believe, 72 so I have actually got better as my pulse used to be 100+ and BP 150+ over 80ish before. But then I am on tablets.

I BEGGED him to treat the cause rather than the symptoms and read, and gave, him a brief paraphrase of the last post saying that this could be the last time he sees me if I get another shock like that. Does he want that on his conscience for the rest of his life, if he does nothing.

I have just had a blood test for Lipids, Liver function and something else I forget. I was supposed to fast but I do not remember Dr Gama telling me that. Anyway I only had a coffee two and a half hours earlier so it was deemed OK. No gloves were used tho’ and the hands weren’t washed by the nurse, so no hygiene precautions were seen again. Telling Dr Gama about these breaches seems to fall on deaf ears

I really want to die at the moment but it is no use telling Dr Gama because thanks to the various psychiatrists in Neath I am banned from any further treatment cos I wont take medication without a diagnosis

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On the way from the blood test and within 200 yards of Castle Surgery I got way laid by Brian and Andy, 2 ex patients, Andy needs a clearance of all his remaining teeth and wanted me to do them as the NHS will NOT arrange a general anaesthetic for him and he has to pay over £400 which he has not got. He said my ex practice had gone to the dogs, no one seemed to care anymore like the time I was there. They both said almost in harmony “I was the best dentist etc etc” They are both professional singers so it was a minor third, Brian taking the root.

THEN I met and had a coffee with an mate for MIND and HE said, without prompting, that Dr John was the most unpopular Doctor in Briton Ferry Surgery. He said there were queues for the other docs as no one volunteered to see Dr John. Only his words of course but I had heard that before. He had just changed surgeries to Castle Surgery so I told him to avoid Kahan and Lewis for a start and see Gama or McNally if he could and told him why.

Then I saw my effin brother in law and I burst into tears. I could take no more.

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Nearly died

I didn’t say in yesterday’s post but I had, what appeared to me, as a mini heart attack almost from the moment that Pensions woman left my house. Heart racing, numbness in my left arm with tingling  in my left little and ring fingers and breathless. I felt absolutely dreadful. Niggles rather than pain spread across my chest on the left side. I went to town, by car, to get some food I was shaking and spontaneously crying by now.  On return I tried sitting in the garden but the pains got worse. I wanted to die.

I went to bed but I couldn’t sleep because my minds was racing over my finances in August and how I would probably have to sell my house and how that c*nt Dr RB John had eventually succeeded in totally destroying me. Also thinking about Muthakkumar’s comment at that last appointment saying I had had refused medication and thus he would not see me.

ANSWER THIS : How would being on anti psychiatric medication have had an influence on how I reacted, or rather HOW MY FUCKING BODY REACTED to all this? Hence the reason I refused medication WITHOUT A DIAGNOSIS. ( Anybody that disagrees with me PLEASE leave a comment )

BUT now I can’t get out of bed, I can’t sleep because my mind is racing and I don’t know where my mobile phone is and my wireless/portable house phone in my bedroom had fallen out the cradle and was discharged.

I prayed to my dead Dad and Mum PLEASE HELP ME.I didn’t pray to my Christian God as I now believe he wasn’t listening unless He also has plans for me that He won’t tell me. That shows that Dr RB John thinks he is a god doesn’t it?

After tossing and turning for an eternity I had the weird idea to sleep with the pillows under my feet and no pillow for my head. I feel asleep immediately. I had to have the radio on (Arrow) all the time but the first song was Brain Damage by Pink Floyd, 2nd was Highway to Hell by ACDC so no real help there. I eventually fell asleep.

slept, woke, slept, woke, was sick in the toilet, slept, was sick in the bed, woke, so I went down stairs at 4.00am and cleaned the sheets and mattress.

I wanted to tell someone about all this but as it was Saturday I went to Boots Chemist as the girls in the Pharmacy are the only medical type professionals I know in Neath and trust. (It was either them or the vets. I have NO respect for any so called doctor in Neath). Karen sent me to the out of hours service in the local Hospital. I saw a doctor at 1.50.

BP 120/80, pulse 72 heart beating regularly but with syncopation. I saw he had trouble getting the pulse in my right arm. The Doc said I showed all the signs of having an angina attack but I may also have been very close to a myocardial disaster…. stroke or heart attack considering my cardiac history. He asked if I wanted to be admitted and I asked if I had to say yes and he said no BUT he wagged his finger at me and said ANY PAIN in your chest  ring 999 BUT he insisted I go and see Dr Gama on Monday. I was going to anyway.

He had discovered I was a dentist in the history taking and treated me with respect afforded to a professional (listening? Drs Lewis, Kahan Muttha, Balla etc etc) He said you had worked for the NHS for a long time so let then work for you now (listening? NHS Wales). He prescribed a nitrolingual spray (ALL doctors tell me to fkn move on and forget dentistry BUT I do not know if the top advert changes, I hope it doesn’t but fkn look at it.) for the chest pain: angina and he said it was definitely triggered by that pensions woman.

I talked to a fellow friend/sufferer on the telephone for 2 hours, ate some stir-fry I quickly concocted and went to bed at 8.00pm and woke after undisturbed sleep at 6.00am. I had left the radio on and they played “Total eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler (she comes from Neath coincidentally) Those 3 coincidences are why I love music so much and why I have written 400+ songs, wish I could use both hands now and write some more.

 

I don’t need to commit suicide now as my heart has taken over and it will be THAT that decides wether I die or not now . IT IS OUT OF MY HANDS.

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This cardiac incident PROVES that Dr RB John CATASTROPHICALLY fucked up my life in 1998 so let us compare the telephone call with the visit from the Pension wallah.

In 1998: Two (2) months after that telephone call all this was occurring whilst I was on prescription medication and whilst Dr RB John was refusing to tell me what was happening and thus my pension was SEVERLY reduced meaning I had to eventually go on Income Support. I had NO HELP in ANY shape from ANYONE, I could not even get treatment for my increasing anger etc

In 2009: I will loose Income Support on August 22nd 2009 BUT I will be able, heart willing, to sort this shit out my way. If not I am now sure I will get assistance as the stress now WILL KILL ME.

Also about 2 weeks into my stay in Heath House I received a telephone call from my receptionist that the practice was left open, causing more stress. So that could have been 26th June-ish as I was hospitalised 12th June 1998. The date on Friday was 26th June 2009. Is that a coincidence? A coincidence does not prove a relationship, but related events may be expected to have a higher index of coincidence. That sentence requires NO further comment.( Anybody that disagrees with me PLEASE leave a comment ) It however proves, in my mind something I have know ALL ALONG and something denied by EVERYONE IN THE NHS IN WALES and points to ONE CAUSE.

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Question: “You know the difference between God and a doctor?”
Answer: “God never thinks He’s a doctor.”

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Synchronicity is the experience of two or more events which are causally unrelated occurring together in a meaningful manner. In order to count as synchronicity, the events should be unlikely to occur together by chance.

The two events: The visit from the Pensions woman and my retirement in 1998. If Dr RB John HAD told me correctly and professionally I was to be retired pre June 1998 the likelihood of the events of the following 10 years occurring would be extremely unlikely as I would have done what was necessary myself and thus would have had no one to blame for the outcome but me. AND I would have had  a life that was of my own making. SO it would have been EXTREMELY unlikely that I would NEED Income Support.

Which of course is why I say Dr RB John IS the cause, he WAS negligent, he WAS corrupt in the complaint, he HAS deceived the NHS and they protect him.

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Medical reactions to SUICIDE:

Dr RB John said in the Medical Opinion that I talked seriously about suicide, between November 2007 and June 1998:

yet he did nothing for at least 7 months, but arrange for me to suddenly be hospitalised but without telling me.

Dr AS Howe of Dyfed Road Surgery on hearing me say I should have committed suicide called the police to section me. The same day.

Dr F Gama of Castle Surgery referred me to Dr Balla I had an appointment with her maybe 2-3 days later.

Which is the best/correct treatment?

Which treatment could be called exemplary?

Which treatment could be described as negligent?

or show that Dr RB John had MADE UP my suicidal intentions. The compliment slip also says so. No wonder the Medical Opinion was refused as evidence in the NHS Complaint. AND this shows the corruption in the NHS Complaint Service, in Wales, by ALL concerned.

my cries for help

And yet in June 1999 the Consultant in Heath House wrote this letter.

I need to rest.

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The final straw

When I become 60 in two months I will be instantly £500 pcm worse off.

I am now on Income support but this will change to Pension Credit when I am 60, on August 22nd this year.

A lady from the pension services came round yesterday and told me that my income is now too much and I will loose the need for Pension Credit when I am 60 so I will be instantly £500 a month worse of in the next 2 months because as well as loosing the £320 a month of Income Support I will now have to pay council tax of nearly £200 a month

SO  I WILL BE INSTANTLY £500 pcm worse off.

I will not be able to survive financially

There is no need to kill myself now as my BP is EXTREMELY high I can hear it BANGING in my ear now as I type. I couldn’t sleep last night as I couldn’t stop myself thinking.

These events also show that Medication would be the worst form of treatment for me in these circumstances just as immediate hospitalisation was in 1998.

A man attacked by Denis Nielsen the serial killer described concisely, in a TV programme recently, the feelings of being unnecessarily on psychiatric medication. He put it into words I could not. He said it was like being in a balloon which severely reduced his ability to react normally, all his sense were dulled and NOONE listened to him. He said he had been attacked by Nielsen BUT the psychiatric professionals said it was all in his mind and kept ignoring what he was saying. Until the Neilsen was arrested and the truth came out.

THIS is how I feel now and also how I have felt for the last ten years as the whole of the NHS denies the truth. No one listened to me and ignored what I WAS SAYING totally telling me to move on.

HELP

www.mad-dentist.co.uk

Dr RB John

 

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Michael Jackson RIP

What a performer.

This is my favourite song with one of the best guitar solos on a pop record.  Hats of to Eddie Van Halen for that.

Proof that angels now can sing Rock and Roll.

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DIAGNOSIS

DIAGNOSIS : Typically, a person with abnormal symptoms will consult a physician, who will then obtain a history of the patient’s illness and examine him for signs of disease. The physician will formulate a hypothesis of likely diagnoses and in many cases will obtain further testing to confirm or clarify the diagnosis before providing treatment

Dr Muthakkumar has refused to see me just because I WANTED A DIAGNOSIS of the illness for which I apparently REFUSED treatment. I asked him 3 times for a diagnosis and he refused to answer.

Dr Gwen Kahan sent me in April 2008 to the Psychiatrist as “AN UN-GRATEFUL PATIENT” because I wanted reassurance about the DIAGNOSIS of my heart condition, having been told that the DIAGNOSIS was initially incorrect.

Mr DH SImpson of the Independent Review said I had no DIAGNOSIS of any illness sufficient to warrant my hospitalisation but that the treatment was exemplary.

So after 11 years I am no nearer getting answers from, initially, Dr RB John and now the NHS, but ONE thing, one word, sticks in my throat. One word that seems to not be in the language of the NHS in Wales.

One word I based my career on: DIAGNOSIS.

I spent 23 years of my life doing 4 things.

Examination, investigation of symptoms including tests, diagnosis and then and only then treatment.

I now see no point in continuing this life.

Dr RB John, High Sheriff of West Glamorgan will soon have killed me as I no longer wish to live.

I thank Mandy, Nikki, Calum and of course dear Deb Acle for their support.

 

3) The minutes

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Gordon Brown saves the world

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Foreign staff may have difficulties with communication and the UK culture

There is a “catastrophic” shortage of psychiatrists in the NHS, leading to a reliance on foreign staff who may have difficulties with communication and the UK culture, a senior doctor said.

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THAT.  I doubt if Drs Ballasurryia and Muthakkumar were born in the UK as they speak English with the same emphases as my brother in law, also a doctor, trained in Calcutta. BUT I too would struggle with their cultural differences if I worked, as a Dentist, in their homeland. AND speaking THEIR language.

Dr Muthakkumar thinks it is correct to prescribe medication/treatment, in my case, WITHOUT providing a DIAGNOSIS. He then BANS me from any FURTHER APPOINTMENTS specifically because I INSISTED on KNOWING THE DIAGNOSIS of the “illness” for which I allegedly refused treatment. REMEMBER I HAVE NEVER EVER HAD A DIAGNOSIS OF ANY MENTAL ILLNESS, thanks to Dr RB John

 MY training taught ME to EXAMINE a patient then form a DIAGNOSIS, following tests, Then decide on a TREATMENT PLAN, with discussion with the patient and THEN and ONLY THEN arrange treatment.

I have had to suffer the last ten years being described as a “MENTAL PATIENT” just because Dr RB John MADE UP I WAS A HIGH RISJK SUICIDE. Medical Opinion and Compliment Slip.

BUT then the racist overtones of the above TOTALLY evaporate as Dr RB John ALSO refused me the privilege of knowing a diagnosis or treatment plan. HE arranged my treatment without telling me ANYTHING. He caused ALL OF THIS.

hence: DAI-gnosis: <pronounced diagnosis>  In Wales this means “fuck the patient” because the medical profession, see no reason to tell the patient what is wrong with him/her, and then actively block the patient’s request FOR A correct Medical diagnosis. The practitioner then provides treatment which either is unnecessary or catastrophically wrong.

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Judge refused to jail the thug who left me with brain damage … because he’s a doctor. Nik Mann, 29, from Birmingham, eventually pleaded guilty to grievous bodily harm, which carries a maximum sentence of five years. But he walked free from Warwick Crown Court in 2007 with just 200 hours of community service after Judge Marten Coates said jail would burden the State and deprive the community of Mann’s skills. He was also ordered to pay Stephen £2,000 compensation.

The General Medical Council also let Mann off lightly. Suspended for 12 months, it allowed him to return to work in April this year.

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I have NO HUMAN RIGHTS but these criminals do.

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 This photo REALLY annoys me, the arrogance in their posture and his appalling set of false teeth.

 

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The corrupt protect their own.

Doctors in Neath seem to show the same indignant righteousness, over diagnoses as do MP’s over their expenses.  AND I stupidly expected my Member of Parliament and Assembly Member to assist me expose the corruption in the Health Service in Neath/ Wales/ UK.

Dr Gwen Kahan sends me to the local Psychiatric Unit because I query a comment that my heart disease has been misdiagnosed. She screams at me that I am an ungrateful patient and I should grow up and move on. Look woman all I wanted was a CORRECT fucking  DIAGNOSIS.

Dr Muthakkumar refuses to see me because I apparently refused treatment for an illness/disease for which HE refuses to give me a diagnosis. I am therefore BANNED from the local Psychiatric Unit BECAUSE of this. Look arsehole all I want is a diagnosis of any illness I may have, I have asked EVERY FUCKING shrink I have seen for a fucking diagnosis but all have refused me my basic right. I turn up to EVERY given appointment as my part of the patient’s side of the NHS contract, no matter how hard I know it is going to turn out.

And the instigator of ALL this Dr RB John MAKES UP a diagnosis which destroy my life completely. Then the  marvelously named Mr DH  Simpson from the Independent Review says I have NO DIAGNOSIS BUT THE TREATMENT FOR THIS UNDIAGNOSED DISEASE WAS EXEMPLARY.

DOH!!! (which of course is an acronym for Department Of Health) How apt!!

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Diagnosis: Typically, a person with abnormal symptoms will consult a physician, who will then obtain a history of the patient’s illness and examine him for signs of disease. The physician will formulate a hypothesis of likely diagnoses and in many cases will obtain further testing to confirm or clarify the diagnosis before providing treatment.

DAI-gnosis: <pronounced diagnosis>  In Wales this means “fuck the patient” because the medical profession, see no reason to tell the patient what is wrong with him/her, and then actively block the patient’s request FOR A correct Medical diagnosis. The practitioner then provides treatment which either is unnecessary or catastrophically wrong.

Corrupt: an “impairment of integrity, virtue or moral principle; depravity, decay, and/or an inducement to wrong by improper or unlawful means.

Corruption: the dysfunction of a political system or institution in which government officials, political officials or employees seek illegitimate personal gain through actions such as bribery, extortion, cronyism, nepotism, patronage, graft, and embezzlement.

 

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Seems pointless making an effort to stay alive.

I asked the psychiatrist for the diagnosis of the illness for which I KEEP getting appointments with the Tonna Mental Health resources.

NO ANSWER

He said then I “refused” medication despite Dr F Gama saying medication is contraindicated because of my “heart condition”

MEDICATION TO TREAT WHAT ILLNESS?? NO ANSWER

Maybe my question is lost in translation. Maybe I ought to learn a different form of English to make myself understood.

I ASKED “WHAT IS THE FUCKING DIAGNOSIS FOR WHICH I GET ALL THESE FUCKING APPOINTMENTS?”. (Without the fuckings of course, maybe I should have sworn at him) I totally lost it but this time I was thrown out/asked to leave. (spell check for fuckings was ducklings, how cute for such a venomous word)

It is pointless going to ANY FUCKING Doctor in Neath because ALL seem not to know how to report an under performing, negligent Doctor.

Dr Muthakkumar too has refused to see me again SOOOO

 say I now stand on the fkn bridge threatening to jump and I get sectioned BUT the top psychiatrist in West Glam, Muthakkumar, has refused to see me so what fkn happens.

NOW TWO of the “top” psychiatrists in West Glamorgan,  Drs Ballasurryia and Muthakkumar, have refused to see me, which implies that I DO NOT HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS. YET I am standing on a bridge threatening to jump into the sewerage in the River Neath. 2 doctors are needed to section me BUT two of the top psychiatrists have said I am not ill, by their refusal to treat or even offer a diagnosis. SO why the fuck am I standing on the bridge threatening to jump????

EH?? Dr RB John???

The clinical psychologist says there is NO TREATMENT for me 

BUT I DO NEED ANSWERS.

THE mental health team have refused to treat me which implies strongly  that I HAVE NO FUCKING MENTAL ILLNESS surely???

I am just EXCEEDINGLY ANGRY and it is time for some serious excesses.

Oddly enough my left arm has not gone numb and my weak pulse in my right arm is 72, confirmed in my neck.

Castle surgery cannot now send me to the psychiatrist now so what do they do when I tell them of the trigger points for the developing PTSD and their effects?

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tHE mAD dENTIST 1967 -1998

The details surrounding the moment of my destruction are no longer important. The hell I went through experiencing the destruction of my life is nothing compared to the hell I am experiencing 10 YEARS LATER.

Some examples:         April 29th 2009            May 1st 2009                May 4th 2009                May 6th 2009                   May 8th 2009                 May 9th 2009                   May 10th 2009

I wanted to commit suicide 22nd December 2008

BUT now in June 2009 I still have received ABSOLUTELY no counselling or treatment. I am told however to move on and get used to my destruction.

You cannot make this up. All because of THIS WORK OF FICTION

HELP ME!!

they don’t know what the fuck they are doing. It is definitely time for those serious excesses.

 

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Four hours to change my life

How can I expect the truth and answers from Dr RB John and the subsequent cover up when Gordon Brown announces the inquiry into the Iraq war. It will meet in secret and blame no one. It will have no legal powers to demand documents, compel anyone to attend or require witnesses to swear an oath. And since it will take at least a year to conduct, the findings will come out safely beyond the date of the next General Election.

So the NHS Wales covering up for the corrupt Dr RB John is extremely minor in comparison.

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I saw a Dr McNally in Castle surgery about my chest infection. She could not find the pulse in my right hand but saw no significance in this even though I said I KEEP asking about it.  She said “it came to something when a patient showed the Doctor how to do something”

I mentioned the pain in the wrist also and that was ignored.

She mentioned the appointment with the psychiatrist today and during the ensuing conversation about that ignorant man Dr RB John, Locum Insurance was mentioned and I told her I had had 4 hours in effect from being told FOR THE FIRST TIME that “I was to be sectioned” to being “sectioned” so how was I supposed to fucking react. If I had been able to IMMEDIATELY arrange all the important things necessary then I wouldn’t have needed to go to hospital. I, at least, needed considerably longer than 4 hours but this was  denied.

I tried to arrange all my sickness insurances AFTER my release but was told by all concerned that this could not be done in retrospect as I should have informed the companies BEFORE I WENT TO HOSPITAL.

In four hours.

And still I have that fkn appointment this afternoon at 4.00pm

why suicidal people should kill themselves

The ex husband of a friend hang himself yesterday having been told to go home by the local hospital as he was wasting their time, apparently. I know no more.

I also had  searchs yesterday that found my blog for “suicide in neath in June 2009” and “why suicidal people should kill themselves” The last must have been from Dr Ballasurryia  a psychiatrist in Neath Port Talbot Hospital as she almost told me to kill myself last February. The other psychiatrist in Neath is a Dr Muthhakkumar and he won’t treat me UNTIL I threaten to commit suicide. I have another appointment on Tuesday with Muthhakkumar. That should be fun as I find difficulty understanding him due to his accent.

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Yesterday I saw another regular from The Star pub, now closed because of RAT INFESTATION,  who asked how I was, so I told him about the lack of care re my heart, thumbs and  left arm. He countered with the chaos surrounding HIS lack of treatment in another surgery in Neath. HE also said Dr RB John was an arrogant, ignorant, self centred lieing bastard who he wouldn’t trust to treat a turd.  So I told him Dr RB John was now High Sheriff of West Glamorgan and after a moments silence he said “Bryn is a c~nt isn’t he, for fucks sake. I thought you two were colleagues.” He then started a rant about politicians.

I am told to move on and YET PEOPLE STILL come up to me and ask about my wrecked life AND NOONE says a good word about Dr Ronald Bryn John. Except the NHS Wales who think he is exemplary.

oh yeh and my sister Dr KE James.

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Some documents that show Dr RB John was Medical Director of Neath Port Talbot Health Board when I started the the Complaint in 2005.

NEATH PORT TALBOT LOCAL HEALTH BOARD CLINICAL GOVERNANCE COMMITTEE

and from 2007  NEATH PORT TALBOT LOCAL HEALTH BOARD NOTES ON THE CLINICAL

 

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I tried to kill myself last night

WOW what a night, I woke at 4.00, turned the radio on and fell back to sleep immediately straight into a nightmare. In it I was trying to explain exactly what I had lost to people I knew, whilst in my house.

The house was full and my sister was there, my fkn brother in law was there, patients were there. (In fact some of the patients I recognised were the ones I saw yesterday in town. Ones that said they missed me etc etc..)

I was explaining about all the stuff my sister gave to her friends without consulting me and the atmosphere got SOO bad that I was throwing things round the kitchen, and I crawled into a cupboard with a carving knife and somehow forced myself awake with my screaming, crying and shouting.

I woke in a sweat, wondering where I was. I was crying uncontrollably. I have just discovered that the Duvet cover is ripped almost in two, the bottom fitted sheet was scrumpled under my pillow.

Once I had realised I was safe and back in reality I went downstairs to make a coffee and there in front of me was the carving knife from my dream, kitchen cupboards were wide open and the dustbin was tipped over and the rubbish ALL over the floor.

I burst into tears again. OH SHIT I WANT TO DIE.

Had I sleep walked?

THANKS Dr RB John for TOTALLY FUCKING my life up with your lies

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THIS IS A REASON TO GET TAKEN OFF THE DENTAL REGISTER

Boyd had failed to examine patients properly, provide treatment plans or record the treatment which was given. David Bradly, for the GDC, told the hearing that 101 of Boyd’s patients were left needing “immediate treatment” after going to see him.

Yet that Dr RB John  had me removed from the Dental Register at 09.00 this morning June 12th 1998, 11 years ago, for these problems but Dr RB John ALSO said THIS about me:

 

In his Medical Opinion dated 4th June 1998. If my nurse had sent all the patients home, 29/05/98, because I was “unable to work” WHY THE FUCK WAS I STILL IN THE PRACTICE. Also is not the word CONFRONTED a little strong: Confronted: to face especially in challenge : oppose <confront an enemy. Present somebody with something usually to accuse or criticise.

AND why the order in the above paragraph, from his “Medical Opinion” 29/05/98 first and  then the 21/05/98. If he was writing “from my medical notes” then that error would NOT HAVE OCCURED. It could happen however if you are making up the story, or was it a typo? BUT then the date would have been recorded in my Medical Notes and seen by the NHS  Complaint, where he investigated himself.

ALSO should Dr RB John have written these “facts” in my Medical Notes for ALL to see, but NOONE, in the NHS Farce/Complaint mentioned  these “visits” In fact Mr DH Simpson from the Independent Review, Brecon, said THERE WAS NO DIAGNOSIS of any illness sufficient to warrant hospitalisation. Surely if Dr John had done what he said he would have written THAT in the notes if not as in the case with the struck off dentist he would be guilty of failing to record the treatment which was given and provide treatment plans.

“The General Dental Council (GDC) heard how the investigation discovered that Boyd had failed to examine patients properly, provide treatment plans or record the treatment which was given.”

NO, Dr RB John WAS FOUND TO BE EXEMPLARY

I actually now believe that the so called NHS Complaint service never DID investigate with total impartiality. I believe the investigation was , from the start, geared to make sure Dr RBJohn was found to be exemplary, NO MATTER WHAT, AFTER ALL I was only a mental patient. A statement repeated many times since then.

READ my thoughts on the Medical Opinion.

AND then why did the Consultant from Heath House Priory write ONE YEAR LATER 29th June 1999 “Mr James WILL NOT BE ABLE TO RETURN TO DENTISTRY. SHE DIDN’T KNOW I WAS NO LONGER PRACTICING by that comment, yet I had been “retired” for a year by then. And look how that was organised.

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Short Term effects of two drugs:

Drug A: a surge of euphoria (”rush”) accompanied by a warm flushing of the skin, a dry mouth, and heavy extremities. Following this initial euphoria, the user goes “on the nod,” an alternately wakeful and drowsy state. Mental functioning becomes clouded due to the depression of the central nervous system. Other effects included slowed and slurred speech, slow gait, constricted pupils, droopy eyelids, impaired night vision, vomiting, constipation.  The drug causes dependency.

Drug B: can cause psychiatric problems that previously were not there and in some cases this had led to violent behaviour towards others and suicide. development of unpleasant or distressing restlessness and the need to move, often accompanied by an inability to sit or stand still, drowsiness, confusion, muscle twitching or convulsions. The drug causes dependency. the withdrawal from which has caused the occurrence of new symptoms.

I started Drug B at 09.00 June 12th 1998 11 years ago, today. Drug A  is Heroin, drug B is Seroxat.

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4015 days later

Eleven years ago today at 11.30 am GMT I made the biggest mistake of my life. I trusted a Doctor, I believed that a Doctor would not lie.

AND so my life and career was destroyed.

I hope Dr RB John is happy today surrounded by his cohorts, Drs EM Williams, R Lewis, G Kahan and my sister Dr KE James.

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I was told by the Human Rights Commission in Cardiff that I HAD NO RIGHTS yet Travellers have rights,  Terror suspects have rights and that was just from the front page of ONE newspaper.

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Greed, collapsing moral values and the decline of old-fashioned virtues such as honesty and tolerance were named as blights on the lives of millions.

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Other national papers DO exist. One rule for one….                         no news  here in this paper.                             Corruption in Parliament is reported here                           At least the tits are on page 3 rather than being High Sheriff of West Glamorgan                          AND from the Times …Who gives a flying fuck about this story?                          And no news from Wales.

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I sent this email to the Welsh Assembly Health Minister on 10th JUne 2009  but no reply so far, I requested a read receipt.

Dear Madam,

    I most sincerely apologise for this email but having seen who the second swine flu victim is I have been unable to sleep and my mind has been in turmoil. Please read the following.

    On starting the Complaint against Dr RB John I moved to Dr EM Williams’ Tabernacle Street Surgery in Skewen, Neath. In 2004 I presented to her feeling dreadfully ill with extremely high temperature and excessive thirst, 4-6 litres a day of water. She seemed to ignore these symptoms and spent time describing me as a good looking man and giving me tips on how to improve my appearance. I also felt it was not a totally professional appointment. The second visit I gave my symptoms and she said “that she did not listen to patients and only went on her examination”, which then was extremely cursory. The third visit I saw her partner and he gave me Amoxycillin. I went to Casualty in Neath Port Talbot Hospital where it was discovered I had Mycoplasmic Pneumonia and a “light shadow” on my left lung. I was given strong antibiotics. A few weeks later I awoke in the middle of the night coughing incessantly, pain in my chest with sweat pouring from me like a water-fall so I rang 999. I was admitted to Ward C in Neath Port Talbot Hospital where Dr M Ebeyer drained my 1.3 litre Lung Abscess. I was in for 3 weeks and the cause was suggested as “delayed treatment” for the pneumonia. I was the Senior Registrar’s Clinical Case in his forthcoming examination as my abscess was the biggest he had ever heard off.

    After a rather chaotic and unprofessional start to an informal complaint (out of date complaint form and refusing to give me a copy of my notes despite keeping the £10 cheque for 6 months) but when MIND in Neath rang on my behalf regarding my sight of my medical notes she screamed at Sharon that “I was only a mental patient”. I changed surgeries as I passed the complaint onto the Local Health Board, where Dr RB John was Medical Director, and at the same time I asked Katie Norton, the CEO for the connection between Dr RB John and the Local Health Board. It was while I was in Ward C that I had more proof, in the Evening Post, that Dr RB John was Medical Director. I asked  Katie Norton 3 times as I wished to ascertain the viability of the investigation considering this conflict of interest but she never answered. The following acting CEO confirmed that he indeed was the Medical Director and both complaints were rapidly passed to the Independent Review in Brecon where Dr EM Williams was quickly found to be exemplary with no case to answer.    Dr EM Williams however did ask for sight of my Medical Notes, unlike Dr RB John.

    I believe that I had had the “silent heart attack” prior to the 999 telephone call. The silent heart attack mentioned in the response to that complaint at the beginning of the year. Associated with the stress caused by a major upheaval in my life, the loss of my career in 1998 caused by Dr RB John’s total refusal to be professional.

    Interestingly in October/November 2007 I had a surprise letter from the General Medical Council in Manchester telling me that my case against Dr RB John was out of date, as I already knew, and that it was not unique but would not elaborate despite me asking many times. Also they said that there was a case to answer regarding Dr EM Williams and that they had referred it back to Neath Port Talbot Health Board, under the present CEO. I have never EVER sent a letter to the GMC in Manchester but I received the reply at roughly the same time as the first of two recorded letters to your office went astray.

    I have recently asked Dr Goodall about this complaint but have received no reply. I had threatened to commit suicide in December 2008 and had seen Dr Ballasurryia who said that the NHS had treated me abysmally and I deserved compensation for the loss of my career. She has since denied saying that and has refused to see me again.(yet I have another appointment with Tonna on the 16th June) I was going through all that at the time Dr A Goodall did not comment on Dr Williams’ case and so it is just another irritation similar to the treatment I received from Dr Rao regarding my right thumb and the complaint I stopped.

    Seeing her name has indelibly reminded me of the 3 weeks spent in Ward C, the threat of removal of part of my left lung if it did not clear. The worrying tests for Cancer that I underwent. And meeting, in my last week in Ward C, an old friend Paul I hadn’t seen since school, who died a few weeks later from a brain tumour. It has reminded me of the “NHS Complaint Service” and what they called me; paranoid, with delusions of persecution and dislocation from reality.

    And reinforced again the despair over the loss of my career in 1998 in “mysterious circumstances”.

    I am kept being told to move on, which I was prior to the loss of Blood Pressure and pulse in my left arm and then the severe pain in my right wrist/thumb. I am a classically trained pianist, Grade 5 RAMA and have played guitar and piano since the age of 6 and was developing a 2nd career as a composer and performer. My medical condition put paid to that as I cannot  play either now because of the problems in my arms.

   And I still cannot seem to get any form of help from Castle Surgery. I have an appointment tomorrow (Monday) to try again to get help with the way I feel medically and mentally. Both caused by one act of negligence, malpractice and their ongoing side effects.

    Thank you so much for reading this. I believe I now have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder as I now react to stimuli, to the reminders of an horrific time over which I had not control. This is not the 1st time I have felt so desperate nor will it be the last, but this time the “cause”, her name, has been reported Nationwide.

    If Dr Kahan had listened to me I would not have wished to commit suicide last year, If Dr Williams had listened to me I probably would not have had a lung abscess. BUT if Dr John had TALKED to me NONE of this would have happened. I would still probably be a NHS Dentist with 5 years left to work. My accountant and I had brokered a “rescue” deal with my Bank which pivoted on my communicating with the bank 3 times a week and me ringing the Insurance Company daily to try and force them to pay the compensation. I have to stop now as I have just been reminded of the catastrophic failure of this deal.

    Thank you again for reading this, it may give you some idea of my desperation.

Yours Faithfully

Alyn D F James.

 

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Poons is dead and I want to join him

A guy that used to frequent a website  I do, committed suicide on Saturday 30th May 2009. I never knew him but did look at his website, but it was too traumatic for me to do that too often because I TOO WANT TO COMMIT SUICDE ALSO.

RIP Dave Halligan

I am not an alcoholic, I am a not a drug addict, I am just a person that is being killed by the very NHS I worked for for 23 years. As EVERYONE covers up one man’s deceit and lies.

However I fight these suicidal thoughts daily as I am doing right now.

I have deleted the post about the visit to the doctors yesterday regarding my severe chest infection, pain in my right thumb and my suicidal ideation. She totally ignored two out of the three of the above and so I am on antibiotics for my chest infection. I have lost count of the number of times I have asked the “doctors” in Castle Surgery about my thumb.

If/when I kill myself the reaction from my sister and the rest of the corrupt so called professionals in Neath, protecting, Dr RB John will be THANK GOD HE HAS GONE.

Corruption is rife in the UK today.

Especially in the NHS in Neath, West Glamorgan.

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But then even so called respectable newspapers lie.

Who’s that hiding in the back of the car Harry?

look carefully at the picture  about here: It is 2 pictures stuck together

AND look at the comments, I believe all think it is real. AND THESE ARE PEOPLE that probably voted in the recent elections.

And people that commented on this story, except one :>).

But this just shows a cross section of the thoughts of a few people in Neath regarding my MP and his forgetfulness.

Apart from the money he forgot to reply to me also. When I went to his Neath office some member of his staff appeared to think that HE was the man I wished to speak to. NO, who ever you were, I wrote to Peter Hain, not you.

 

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Schadenfreude

The NHS in Wales thanks to Dr RB John seem to have schadenfreude in their dealings with me. Schadenfreude is described as a pleasurable emotion resulting from the misfortune of others.

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Through their Bullying, the act of intentionally causing harm to others, through verbal harassment, physical assault, or other more subtle methods of coercion such as manipulation. In colloquial speech, bullying often describes a form of harassment perpetrated by an abuser who possesses more physical and/or social power and dominance than the victim.

The harassment can be verbal, physical and/or emotional. Bullying can also be used as a tool to conceal shame or anxiety or to boost self esteem: by demeaning others, the abuser him/herself feels empowered. Bullying is repeated, health-harming mistreatment, verbal abuse, or conduct which is threatening, humiliating, intimidating, or sabotage that interferes with work, in my case medical treatment or some combination of all three.

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Which leads to Psychological trauma a type of damage to the psyche that occurs as a result of a traumatic event. When that trauma leads to posttraumatic stress disorder, damage may involve physical changes inside the brain and to brain chemistry, which damage the person’s ability to adequately cope with stress.

A traumatic event involves a single experience, or an enduring or repeating event or events, that completely overwhelm the individual’s ability to cope or integrate the ideas and emotions involved with that experience. The sense of being overwhelmed can be delayed by weeks, years, even decades, as the person struggles to cope with the immediate circumstances.

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Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person’s familiar ideas about the world and of their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when people or institutions, depended on for survival, violate or betray or disillusion the person in some unforeseen way.

Posttraumatic stress disorder is an anxiety disorder that can develop after exposure to one or more traumatic events that threatened or caused great physical harm.

It is a severe and ongoing emotional reaction to an extreme psychological trauma. This stressor may involve someone’s actual death, an unwanted sexual act, or a threat to physical or psychological integrity, overwhelming psychological defences.

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