There is nothing left now

It is hard to put into words how I feel now the chaos and hell of the last 18 months since my bypass.

It is difficult to accept the responses from certain “doctors” regarding the loss of my career, especially that from my sister.

I never intended to for all this anger to be aimed at me all I want to know is why Dr RB John intentionally destroyed my life, but he HAS refused to be honest and tell me why the HELL he did what he did.

He has “had his friends” humiliate me and make it extremely obvious that they “defend” his actions. By so doing I have been unable to receive true and honest medical treatment until hopefully now.

WHY THE HELL WASN’T I REFERRED BACK TO THE VASCULAR SURGEON or CARDIAC CONSULTANT WITH THE QUERIES I HAD IN APRIL 2008?

I fought thoughts of killing myself on Friday as I bumped into my fucking sister in town. I cried as I walked home, I cut myself with a knife, by accident as it happened, but it made me think why I was taking tablets to keep me alive when I do not want to be alive.

I want to die, for all this to be over.

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Thank god the hell with my previous surgery is over but I do not thank Dr G Kahan for restarting the last 18 months. I just wonder if the  treatment I received was typical of the standard one can expect from Castle Surgery. If so GOOD GOD they should not be allowed to practice. If not then they are as guilty as Dr RB John as they defended him by humiliating, insulting and denying me treatment.

“you cannot have no pulse or blood pressure because your arm would go blue and fall off ” TWICE I was told this and yet  Dr Gama arranged the blood pressure monitor when my arm DID go blue, in fact BLACK and cold AND due to his incompetence as a GP and his admitted mistake. He caused my cry for help ie SUICIDE by his “cock up” HIS WORDS and yet he then has denied me any further treatment by his removing me from his patient’s list. Did he send the referral to the Orthopaedic Consultant? Wwhy did he do that??? panic???? appearing to do something, at last???? AND after 18 months from my initial request.

“it’s due to the way you sit” I have been told this 3 times, AND WITH ALMOST THE SAME symptoms. 1st time led to the bypass due to the occlusion of the artery. 2nd time was due to high potassium ions and was deemed to be a side effect of Ramipiril, prescribed by Dr Gama. 3rd time the phrase starts to get rather childish.

“move on forget dentistry, some things will never be resolved“ and more from others in the surgery

“you just don’t understand“ Precisely the reason I asked the question Dr Lilley.

Enough of quackery.

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I suppose Dr RB John will be parading in his finery at the Remembrance Parade in Neath today. Looking like a clown according to one person who saw him recently at some other parade. Walking with my MP who made no attempt to assist me in finding the facts, exposing the corruption by Dr RB John. Walking with the brave veterans of Neath, boosting his precious ego.

Defended by many so called medical professionals in Neath some of whom I believe have been looking ,googling, for  me on the net:

dentist/dr gama      dr byrn john wales    castle sugery doctors neath  and  “edwina hart” ptsd

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I had a dream last night

I went to see my new Doctor and the Doctor, once we had said hullo then started telling me what she had read in summary of my Medical Notes and in 4-5 minutes covered my medical condition in words, totally.

Also she ignored my complaint with Dr RB John although she did allow me one sentence regarding my depression/anger despair.

She then listened to MY side of the medical queries I have and agreed with me that I should get further investigation re my left and right arms.

IN 5-10 minutes I learnt MORE about my Cardio condition than I did in 24 months with Castle Surgery. AND SHE DID NOT TELL ME TO MOVE ON, not even once. SHe answered the few questions I asked her, I did not have many questions as she pre-empted them all by bringing up the salient points herself.

I wandered out into the rain and pinched my self and it fkn hurt. GOOD GOD I was awake ALL THE time

IT WAS NOT A DREAM.

It actually happened.

AND I endured April 2008 to October 2009 with Dr G. AND all from the same initial questions about having the same symptoms in my left arm and now  having  pain in my right WRIST.

I have met a professional, not a corrupt uncaring arrogant bunch of self centred arseholes. Auspices of Fair Comment

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Same here , mate

I want an end to this culture of cover-up and closing ranks – it’s a rotten streak that is ruining our wonderful NHS.’

Coronation Street star Ken Cope barred from GP for complaining about blunder that made him think he was dying of cancer.
a specialist hospital doctor who examined Mr Cope found that he had been misdiagnosed and wrote a letter to his surgery to inform them.

Incredibly, the surgery didn’t pass on the good news – and Mr Cope wasn’t given the all-clear for a further three years. He was fobbed off and was also denied counselling

Dr Searson – who has since retired – even declined to put a note on his files about his own oversight.

 These doctors can’t play God and then when they get it wrong simply close ranks and send you away with a pat on the back.

The grandfather has now enlisted the help of his MP, Dr John Pugh, to raise his case with Sefton Primary Care NHS Trust, which governs GP surgeries in Southport. Dr Pugh said: ‘Ken has been badly treated by the NHS. ‘Mistakes will happen but it is important that when they come to light they are properly rectified and those involved have their cards marked accordingly. ‘It would certainly appear that Ken deserves an apology over the misdiagnosis and mishandling of his case. ‘I’m also concerned that it raises serious issues that need to be resolved, including a culture of closing ranks in the NHS.‘

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At least his MP is trying to help him, mine did absolutely nothing, in fact did not even respond to my last letter.

My Assembly member also “did not know what to do”, so did nothing.

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HOW THE FUCK CAN I MOVE ON?

I had to turn an 8 year old, in pain, away on Friday night.

The parents were desperate and SOOO apologetic but they could not think of anything else to do. There apparently was no emergency dentist available UNTIL Monday 26th October.

They had been to their dentist, once or twice I say sarcastically, describing the pain in the upper right incisor, he/she said take Calpol and if it doesn’t go away THEN an X-Ray would be taken.

BUT what the fuck could I do??????

BUT FROM JUST LOOKING at the offending tooth, and a quick history, I saw a couple of possible reasons for the pain, well for a start there was VISIBLE decay on the mesial aspect of the tooth. So dentists are now as useless as doctors, probably because they are now up their own arses, like doctors, as dentists have received the HONORARY TITLE of doctor also. I REFUSED to use that honorary title for 2 reasons: A) my profession was Dental Surgeon and surgeons are always called Mr. And B) I did not want to further alienate myself from my patients by pretending to be something I was not.

In the old days WHEN I WAS A DENTIST we would have been down the practice within minutes but on Friday I was only IMPERSONATING a dentist because Dr Ronald Bryn John has made VERY sure I could NEVER EVER practice again. AND  Dr Keatley E James has said “he meant well” as he destroyed my life INTENTIONALLY and she pusillanimously watched.

And as Dr F Gama repeatedly said “I will always be a dentist” and then denied me the psychiatric help I HAVE desperately asked for to get used to my destruction since Dr G Kahan restarted ALL this hell. Dr F Gama removed me from the Castle Surgery list.

I say Dr Gama has denied BUT Dr Muthakkumar, the Consultant psychiatrist has REFUSED to see me again (he banned me from ALL further appointments) at our last appointment because he wished to prescribe me medication BUT REFUSED to give me a diagnosis, necessary in order to offer treatment, despite me asking him for one) That arsehole obviously had not read my hospital notes, which were in front of him, I assume, as there was a rather large pile of papers on the desk which I presume/hope WERE MY hospital notes. Well Muthakkumar played with them during our “dispute”.

In those notes AND in my GP’s medical notes there is a letter signed by him which shows/proves he is incompetent, negligent or to put it bluntly fucking useless. In it he says I am depressed, which is a diagnosis, vague as hell BUT it is STILL a diagnosis and then would have given him a diagnostic right to prescribe. BUT he seemingly had NO IDEA that this existed. (Same as me because I forgot that that existed. BUT I DO remember that he also said to me, at the same time, that he would ONLY TREAT ME IF I THREATENED SUICIDE, which I HAVE FUCKING DONE following the 8 months of hell started by Dr G Kahan and Dr F Gama’s negligence with the blood pressure monitor.)

AND after a letter from the Welsh Assembly Health Minister asking them (Castle Surgery) to ensure that I have the correct level of support for my suicidal ideation. Received/ignored by them in December 2008.

Why I am angry.

I just want the pain to stop. That’s all it boils down to. I just want it to end.

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A billion pounds of the annual Welsh health budget is not being spent properly, according to finance chiefs. How much has the Welsh NHS spent  as they deny the negligence and malpractice of Dr RB John? THEY KEEP telling me to MOVE ON which is a tactic to distract me from the matter in hand, the serious medical malpractice and corruption of the High Sheriff of West Glamorgan in his role as a NHS General Practitioner, as they ALL pretend not to understand or even listen to the facts, the truth.

I have NO need to lie, unlike…………

  

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