replace "High risk suicide" with "you have cancer"

That dentist from Australia, that was the trigger for the last post, started me on a spiral of hell as it seems nobody seems to be able to understand MY situation FROM MY SIDE. He is OK ‘cos he is still practicing as a Dentist whereas I was removed from the Dental Register on JUNE 12th 1998, 221/2 hours after that telephone call. NOTHING I could have done COULD have stopped that. AND Dr RB John NEVER TOLD ME ANYTHING. In fact that arsehole even DENIED his involvement, in writing, to me. A comment from my response in my  last post. Thanks Sam.

Imagine if I had, for example stomach pains and saw my GP and he then referred me to a specialist and then after ONLY 2 short appointments I received that telephone call but this time telling me I HAD to go to hospital the next day for treatment, say Chemotherapy, Imagine then how I would feel. Imagine how I would feel having had ABSOLUTELY  no idea that I EVEN had Cancer. AND then to only be told by telephone less than 24 hours before treatment started. And to be told I WOULD BE MADE TO GO IF I REFUSED”

Then I have the treatment. Then I receive ABSOLUTELY NO FURTHER TREATMENT on my release.

As I said the doctor even DENIED his involvement TO MY FACE. Imagine that doctor then telling me “to stop snivelling” Imagine that doctor then telling me “that he would not write details of my professional visits in the medical notes” Imagine that doctor then REFUSING TO TREAT ME FOR 18 MONTHS. IMAGINE me getting NO FURTHER TREATMENT apart from the 6 week stay in hospital, Imagine THIS LETTER from the Consultant in the hospital saying “I STILL HAVE CANCER” rather than I “was still fragile” AND still nothing being done.

Imagine then the NHS Complaint where, the marvelously named, Mr D H Simpson said that Dr RB John was now exemplary despite NO DIAGNOSIS and that the “chemo” I received was GOOD TREATMENT DESPITE HAVING NO DIAGNOSIS OF CANCER.

And Dr Dr RB John’s ONLY REPLY IN RESPONSE to being asked why he arranged the treatment was “I DO NOT REMEMBER” Which proves that his “diagnosis” and “treatment plan” was unsafe, to say the least.

And then I rediscover the Compliment slip and then Dr KE James confirms that the Medical Opinion was “made up” as she has said that she knew Dr RB John HAD made catastrophic errors but she would not interfere. BUT THIS TIME IT WAS CANCER not “fears for my life”

I have ALWAYS said that if Dr A (Dr RB John) had said I had a physical disease say Cancer then at least I would have got treatment and some sort of respect from the Medics in Neath. As my post dated September 2nd 2008 ‘Depression is worse than cancer,’ says NOW Trisha Goddard says THIS ‘Cancer’s not the worst thing I’ve faced, that was depression. With depression, no one brings you flowers, and the doctors can’t operate and tell you you’re free of the disease within weeks. ‘There never seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel.’

Then I have the same cardio problems and then I go to Dr G Kahan with the same request about the suggested misdiagnosis of my heart condition and then she sends me to the psychiatrist as an ungrateful patient and to stop going on about my CANCER treatment and for me to move on. Imagine Dr Rhyddian Lewis telling me that “something’s will never be resolved” about the now obvious MISDIAGNOSIS and TREATMENT for CANCER.

Would I now be denied treatment for my depression???

Would I be banned from the Psychiatric services in West Glamorgan??

Would the Welsh Health Minister say that there is nothing she “can/will” do? Would my MP and Assembly Member both not reply to many letters???

Would my local evening paper print THIS story and yet refuse to print a story about MY problem. And then I get a visit from the Community support Officer, just at the time Dr RB John became High Sheriff of West Glamorgan.

WOULD I have this reaction from the NHS in Wales if I had had treatment for a misdiagnosed cancer?

NO

What the fuck is the point of me staying alive?

I apologise to all reading who have Cancer and are undergoing treatment at this moment.

I do not intend to lessen the horror of that disease. My Dad died from Bowel Cancer (incidentally Dr R Lewis said “it is amazing I missed that” to my Mum after Dad died, but my sister, Dr KE James, actually REFUSED to help Mum, and me, start an investigation into the circumstances surrounding Dad’s death.I respected my Mum’s feelings and so did not start one myself) 3 of my current bunch of friends have colostomy bags and ALL angrily go on about THE DELAYS in getting treatment as their doctors WOULD NOT LISTEN TO THEM. A fourth has had his reversed after, his words, “that c*nt Dr RB John refused to listen to his symptoms and prescribed STEROIDS for 2 years” He, in desperation, had to have an emergency bowel resection performed privately.

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simvastatin

New health warnings are to be issued over popular cholesterol-lowering drugs after evidence that thousands of users suffer side effects such as depression and sexual problems. More than six million adults who are prescribed statins by their GPs will be told about five new ‘ undesirable effects’ in leaflets issued with packets of the drugs.

These are sleep disturbances, memory loss, sexual dysfunction, depression and a rare lung disease.

What drug did Dr G*** put me on when there is in my medical notes medical proof that I suffered from depression? Simvastatin. where it is said speak with your doctor, (I have and got no answers), if any of these become troublesome: ‘Pins and needles’,(this was due to  the way I sit),  wind, chest pain,( so was this) difficulty sleeping,(told many times to move on) joint pain ( Dr Lilley refused to answer by saying that I did not understand)and back pain, mood changes, (told again to move on) forgetfulness, sexual problems, numbness of the arms (this was also due to  the way I sit) and legs, hair loss, and weakness.

and Bisoprolol where the side effects are, amongst others, Cold or numb extremities,(side effects outweighed as the drug helps WITH MY HEART FAILURE..err what heart failure??) eg hands and feet, Muscle weakness or cramps,(this was due to  the way I sit) Sleep disturbance,(told many times to move on) Depression, (told many times to move on) Nightmares. (ignored)

Bisoprolol also has an additive effect with other medicines that decrease blood pressure, particularly medicines used to treat high blood pressure (antihypertensives). Other medicines that decrease blood pressure include the following: certain antipsychotics and certain antidepressants, eg amitriptyline, phenelzine.

Which was why I insisted Dr Muthakkumar discussed the CLINICAL REASONS ie give me a diagnosis before he prescribed me medication as he INSISTED he wanted to do WITHOUT a diagnosis. Thus showing his negligence as he obviously forgot his diagnosis in 2007. Written in a letter IN MY MEDICAL NOTES. and so he banned me.

SO more quackery.

 

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HOW THE FUCK CAN I MOVE ON?

I had to turn an 8 year old, in pain, away on Friday night.

The parents were desperate and SOOO apologetic but they could not think of anything else to do. There apparently was no emergency dentist available UNTIL Monday 26th October.

They had been to their dentist, once or twice I say sarcastically, describing the pain in the upper right incisor, he/she said take Calpol and if it doesn’t go away THEN an X-Ray would be taken.

BUT what the fuck could I do??????

BUT FROM JUST LOOKING at the offending tooth, and a quick history, I saw a couple of possible reasons for the pain, well for a start there was VISIBLE decay on the mesial aspect of the tooth. So dentists are now as useless as doctors, probably because they are now up their own arses, like doctors, as dentists have received the HONORARY TITLE of doctor also. I REFUSED to use that honorary title for 2 reasons: A) my profession was Dental Surgeon and surgeons are always called Mr. And B) I did not want to further alienate myself from my patients by pretending to be something I was not.

In the old days WHEN I WAS A DENTIST we would have been down the practice within minutes but on Friday I was only IMPERSONATING a dentist because Dr Ronald Bryn John has made VERY sure I could NEVER EVER practice again. AND  Dr Keatley E James has said “he meant well” as he destroyed my life INTENTIONALLY and she pusillanimously watched.

And as Dr F Gama repeatedly said “I will always be a dentist” and then denied me the psychiatric help I HAVE desperately asked for to get used to my destruction since Dr G Kahan restarted ALL this hell. Dr F Gama removed me from the Castle Surgery list.

I say Dr Gama has denied BUT Dr Muthakkumar, the Consultant psychiatrist has REFUSED to see me again (he banned me from ALL further appointments) at our last appointment because he wished to prescribe me medication BUT REFUSED to give me a diagnosis, necessary in order to offer treatment, despite me asking him for one) That arsehole obviously had not read my hospital notes, which were in front of him, I assume, as there was a rather large pile of papers on the desk which I presume/hope WERE MY hospital notes. Well Muthakkumar played with them during our “dispute”.

In those notes AND in my GP’s medical notes there is a letter signed by him which shows/proves he is incompetent, negligent or to put it bluntly fucking useless. In it he says I am depressed, which is a diagnosis, vague as hell BUT it is STILL a diagnosis and then would have given him a diagnostic right to prescribe. BUT he seemingly had NO IDEA that this existed. (Same as me because I forgot that that existed. BUT I DO remember that he also said to me, at the same time, that he would ONLY TREAT ME IF I THREATENED SUICIDE, which I HAVE FUCKING DONE following the 8 months of hell started by Dr G Kahan and Dr F Gama’s negligence with the blood pressure monitor.)

AND after a letter from the Welsh Assembly Health Minister asking them (Castle Surgery) to ensure that I have the correct level of support for my suicidal ideation. Received/ignored by them in December 2008.

Why I am angry.

I just want the pain to stop. That’s all it boils down to. I just want it to end.

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A billion pounds of the annual Welsh health budget is not being spent properly, according to finance chiefs. How much has the Welsh NHS spent  as they deny the negligence and malpractice of Dr RB John? THEY KEEP telling me to MOVE ON which is a tactic to distract me from the matter in hand, the serious medical malpractice and corruption of the High Sheriff of West Glamorgan in his role as a NHS General Practitioner, as they ALL pretend not to understand or even listen to the facts, the truth.

I have NO need to lie, unlike…………

  

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let’s put the health back in Health Care

I go on the forum for Band in a Box and a contributor wrote this

Let’s put the health back into Health care

The forum post. All hail to pghboemike!

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A friend committed suicide last week and I only heard that 3-4 days ago. I was at the time recording a song I wrote in the early 1980’s and another contributor on that site suggested a “Fun Competition”. He gave us some chords and wished to hear our songs.

This is mine “You can’t catch every train on time“

I dedicate the song to her memory.

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26 months of hell

Two years and two months since the start of this blog and what has changed? NOTHING, EVERYTHING HAS GOT SO MUCH WORSE.

I was finishing the abortive and biased NHS Complaint having had Dr Caroline Jones of the HealthCare Inspectorate Wales REFUSE to give me “the documents she holds under the Data Protection Act ” UNTIL SHE HAD SEEN A UTILITY BILL TO PROVE WHO I WAS” having said that “as a side effect of my illness (sic) was memory loss I probably forgot what Dr RB John didn’t tell me“I gave up with the NHS and started another route for answers.

I found the compliment slip in November 2007 so I mentioned this to various authorities in the NHS. This proves the Medical Opinion was “unsafe” to say the least.

I have had 4 angiograms, the last resulting in a haematoma in my right wrist and great pain in my right wrist and thumb. I have had physiotherapy for this which made it so much worse. It was also misdiagnosed as a break of my scaphoid bone and I HAD to wear a plaster splint for 24 hours. Eventually it was discovered I had arthritis in my thumb joint, had one cortisone injection AFTER the bypass, then the thumb was “bent back” at at the follow up by a Dr Rao who refused to listen to me when I said “I HAVE NO PAIN”. I then had a second injection which, of course, was not as successful as the first. I ask Dr L and she  refuses to answer me by angrily saying “YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND! The reason for a question I believe.

I have had a subclavian/carotid bypass and STILL have the same symptoms AFTER. No recordable Blood Pressure and pulse and occasional paralysis of two fingers in my left hand. AND I was told preoperatively that my heart condition had been misdiagnosed.

I had a massive infection of the donor site.

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I asked Dr G Kahan about the misdiagnosis and so started the hell I am in now. She screamed that I was an ungrateful patient and that I should get used to loosing my career and sent me to the local Mental Health Team, but absolutely no reassurance or offer of a referral BACK to the cardiologist. All the hell of the loss of my career was NOW BACK in the forefront of my mind for absolutely no reason.

I keep asking Dr Gama about the misdiagnosis and so starts the blood test saga.

1st blood test the phlebotomist tells me “I cannot have no pulse and BP in my left arm as my arm would go blue and fall off” and no obvious hygiene regime, didn’t wash hands  and wore the same gloves as she wore to open the door to call me in. I told Dr G, I assume he did nothing.

I was told I had high potassium ions in the blood and this was a side effect of the Ramipiril PRESCRIBED initially by Dr G. I was advised to stop taking them. AND THE PARALYSIS DISAPPEARED IMMEDIATELY. Paralysis of extremities and high potassium ions in the blood are a common side effect of that drug. YET when I asked Dr G he said the paralysis was due “TO THE WAY I SAT” and probably something to do with the ulnar nerve“.

I arranged a second test with Dr R Lewis and he spent time telling me that “some things will not ever be resolved, I should move on and forget Dentistry.” He asked if Dr KE James was my sister and repeated that I should move on. He also said that the blood test was clotted as the reason for the re-test, as they couldn’t test the blood ??????? I saw the words MENTAL PATIENT on my notes, since denied by Dr G, in writing. Second test was OK. My despair was increasing BECAUSE OF THESE COMMENTS from Drs L and K.

Dr G increased my dosage of Bisoprolol to 5 mgs a day. I soon complained of extremely cold hands and advised to “wear gloves” The pharmacist in Boots did a medicine check and told me that “A COMMON SIDE EFFECT OF BISOPROLOL WAS COLDNESS IN THE EXTREMITIES” and I should ask my GP. I did and was told that the effects of reducing my BP and PROTECTING MY HEART FROM HEART FAILURE was paramount. (WOW heart failure now and I STILL CANNOT GET REFERRED BACK TO THE PEOPLE THAT DIAGNOSED THIS, IN THE 1st PLACE.)  My hands are STILL cold and a SECOND pharmacist has told me, at the last “repeat” that I should ask my GP again.

Dr G then arranged a Blood pressure monitor but forgot to tell the nurse/technician to place it on my right arm. I protested but was told that the nurse could/would not ask a doctor for advice as he was BUSY and anyway that was what he had written. At the first inflation my left arm went black and extremely cold so I rushed back in despair and the monitor was eventually placed on my right arm, with what appeared like distain. Not surprisingly the readings were high but nothing was done about that because I screamed at Dr G, on December 22nd 2008 “THAT I MIGHT AS WELL KILL MYSELF TO STOP THE NHS DOING IT FOR ME” AS MY ARM NOW HAD GONE BLACK AND COLD, just as the phlebotomist had insultingly predicted at the first blood test. ALL I WAS WAITING FOR WAS IT TO FALL OFF NOW (I had also been told before all angiograms by Dr Sh that “I cannot have no pulse and BP in my left arm as my arm would go blue and fall off”

I was sent to Dr Ballasurryia as a high risk suicide and SHE said ” I have been badly treated by the NHS with the loss of my career and deserved compensation and that SHE would write me a letter to say so.” since strongly denied. She banned me from seeing her because I got angry at her denial and the fact she told me “TO MOVE ON” many times. I asked her HOW DO I MOVE ON WHEN EVERYONE KEEPS REMINDING ME NOW OF MY LOSS??

She NEVER allowed me to speak at two appointments to tell her THAT the loss of my career WAS NOT THE FKN REASON I WISHED TO KILL MYSELF, but she didn’t listen, just told me to move on..

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Then out of the blue I got an appointment with the Cardiologists in Jan/Feb 2009 and in a 5 minute appointment all my fears re the “misdiagnosis” were dispelled. 10-11 months after I asked Dr G K. She could have referred me BACK to the diagnostician, the Cardiology Department, immediately and none of the above would have occurred.

BUT NOW I was fighting SUICIDAL thoughts, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY F*CKING LIFE. AND I AM BANNED FROM EVER SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST AGAIN. AND at a time I desperately NEED psychiatric help.

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SO in October 2009 I have 99% the SAME SYMPTOMS as in August 2007 with my left arm although the Casualty Doctor on my recent visit felt an extremely weak pulse, momentarily in my left arm.

BUT now I am fighting REAL, and intense, suicidal thoughts, not made up ones as stated by Dr RB John in the Medical Opinion.

And I have been ejected from Castle Surgery because Dr G feels I have no confidence in the doctors in Castle Surgery.

I haven’t even touched on the many psychiatric appointments since January this year. THAT IS TOO TRAUMATIC especially as I re-discovered a letter from Dr Muthakkumar, from August 2007, where he says one thing, in writing, which he TOTALLY denied in the last appointment with him. I say no more.

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As the title says 26 months of hell.

My new surgery listened to my symptoms re the left and right arms and is going to investigate and I need an appointment in 2 weeks to discuss the options. THAT IS THE WAY TO DO IT.

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